WISHING YOU ALL A VERY HAPPY 2010 !!
Last year I took some resolutions here..now I am going to introspect did I follow them
Firsts was never to complain..I couldn't do it so well...some people tried my patience and won .I tried my best to take the worst in my stride, but couldnt and failed myself.
Acceptance and acknowledgement... Here I have progressed a little, Except rudeness , I have got enough acceptance, for everything else. And yes I acknowledge everything and everybody in life, thinking that it will bring some good, but sometimes it happens that if you acknowledge some mandatory things, people may think that they are too good and not the person who is feeling grateful for small things , so it may backfire...now i will have to be careful in my praise also:)
genuine..that I am always , everywhere, could never be a hypocrite..to me speaking sweetly and then stabbing a person is much worse than not speaking sweetly..its better to show everybody your real self, so that none expects anything otherwise.
Happy....here I am trying to be happy with myself. Slowly slowly I am trying to detach myself with everything and everyone who brings negativity in my life.
not hurting anybody..I always try never to hurt anybody, but sometimes speaking the truth also hurts someone, like if you call a fat and lazy person..fat and lazy, he would feel hurt, though its true...so now my effort would be not to speak at such times:)
Care for you environment..that I am born with..I cant see anyone wasting water, or using too much of plastic..rather I cant waste anything.
Consume less....here I come at the top:)..I buy only what and when I need..no hoardings at all..though I understood the meaning of hoarding very late:)..our indulgence deprives somebody.
Every year I think of taking a resolution of not accepting any gift of money or things from anybody except my husband, but dont because some people might not take it in right perspective,and I never go back on my promises even to myself, from my side, its my long lived desire, that I must live on my own, and the last decade(or some more years) of my life, I just want to live free of everything..responsibilities, restrictions and any obligations, there must be a time in your life when you can live in peace.....I love doing things for everybody but hate this fear gnawing at my heart..if I dont do this..he/she will feel bad..I want to be free of this heart and want to live bindaas( not that i am interested in doing something out of the boundaries)..just living free of any bindings and fears. Giving me freedom from all obligations is the biggest gift i may get...sometimes it makes me feel like a bird in a golden cage...from the elders to the youngsters, everybody has always had umpteen expectations from me.and i fulfilled most of them, but now I think the time has come for a change...the way everybody wants me to be cool and comfortable with them, let me be me too....all of us should be happy with what we get...no complaints, no suggestions.
No more ambitions for me, except to see happiness all around me.Now only desire I have left is if I could touch a single person's life in a good way, I will think of my life as well lived