when i started
When I started emailing, first day I was so happy, cudnt believe that I cud send a message to my sis (canada)in just a few seconds. I think it was in early 90's that for the first time we had a demonstration in our Ladies club from a computer institute-I cant remember the name, I think it was hard core Institute in kanpur. Till then my children were studying computer but as a subject and used in studies. For the use of housewives that was our first window to the world of computers. I still remember,we all ladies were quite skeptical-- when he said-- u want to know about Amitabh bachhan....who doesnt? just click this and see.....:) want to know about any recipe..... go here and chk.........oh yeah, now when I am remembering that even before this, there used to be a serial on TV...............dont believe it?...............but it is true,in those days TV used to air quite good programmes ,it is to some extent our fault also that we stopped watching DD, otherwise they only gave us Buniyaad, Hum Log,Khandaan, Malgudi days and many more classics..........it was something like PC MAUSI-----it used to tell us how to store all info about your LIC policies and investments and reminders ( of course now all that work is done by mobile.
I was telling about email, when my children started working, i was very happy that i can communicate with them everyday, my day started with a cup of tea and email:) what a combination na? but that is me :) and if i saw a mail from them, my day was made.Initially my darling daughter said-ma we will chat regularly, u wud never feel i am gone.and ma as usual always believed them,then slowly she started getting busy for chatting, it was mailing only that was left:(and it became an addiction for me, if i didnt find anything, I wud feel very irritated and it set me thinking that i will have to find some other ways to keep me occupied.because it was putting a pressure on them also ( My sweet little DIL comes under pressure very fast:) and then its my daughter only who introduced me to blogging.
And now I am becoming an addict here also, now instead of their mails , I keep looking for reactions on my post, so what is the difference? may be fault lies with me.I am unable to do anything without attachment, my theory of attachment with detachment ( do ur duties but dont get attached to anybody) is not applicable to me then.I am unable to understand myself. I always think that i am blogging for myself, then why wait for other's reactions? Why do they matter to me? and it brings to the fore..........the basic human nature..............of caring,loving and being cared,loved..........no matter what we say we need care,love,affection, from wherever it comes it is lapped up,and whatever we need, we must give in abundance ,so that at least some percentage certainly comes back to us.