Sunday, August 24, 2008

when i started





When I started emailing, first day I was so happy, cudnt believe that I cud send a message to my sis (canada)in just a few seconds. I think it was in early 90's that for the first time we had a demonstration in our Ladies club from a computer institute-I cant remember the name, I think it was hard core Institute in kanpur. Till then my children were studying computer but as a subject and used in studies. For the use of housewives that was our first window to the world of computers. I still remember,we all ladies were quite skeptical-- when he said-- u want to know about Amitabh bachhan....who doesnt? just click this and see.....:) want to know about any recipe..... go here and chk.........oh yeah, now when I am remembering that even before this, there used to be a serial on TV...............dont believe it?...............but it is true,in those days TV used to air quite good programmes ,it is to some extent our fault also that we stopped watching DD, otherwise they only gave us Buniyaad, Hum Log,Khandaan, Malgudi days and many more classics..........it was something like PC MAUSI-----it used to tell us how to store all info about your LIC policies and investments and reminders ( of course now all that work is done by mobile.
I was telling about email, when my children started working, i was very happy that i can communicate with them everyday, my day started with a cup of tea and email:) what a combination na? but that is me :) and if i saw a mail from them, my day was made.Initially my darling daughter said-ma we will chat regularly, u wud never feel i am gone.and ma as usual always believed them,then slowly she started getting busy for chatting, it was mailing only that was left:(and it became an addiction for me, if i didnt find anything, I wud feel very irritated and it set me thinking that i will have to find some other ways to keep me occupied.because it was putting a pressure on them also ( My sweet little DIL comes under pressure very fast:) and then its my daughter only who introduced me to blogging.
And now I am becoming an addict here also, now instead of their mails , I keep looking for reactions on my post, so what is the difference? may be fault lies with me.I am unable to do anything without attachment, my theory of attachment with detachment ( do ur duties but dont get attached to anybody) is not applicable to me then.I am unable to understand myself. I always think that i am blogging for myself, then why wait for other's reactions? Why do they matter to me? and it brings to the fore..........the basic human nature..............of caring,loving and being cared,loved..........no matter what we say we need care,love,affection, from wherever it comes it is lapped up,and whatever we need, we must give in abundance ,so that at least some percentage certainly comes back to us.
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18 comments:

Shalom said...

"no matter what we say we need care,love,affection, from wherever it comes it is lapped up,and whatever we need, we must give in abundance ,so that at least some percentage certainly comes back to us".....very beautifully put :)

Renu said...

Thanks Shalom :). see i am lapping it up,very greedy person in this:)

sansmerci said...

i feel bad for being addicted to the internet but somehow blogging and my thoughts being shared and reviewed gives a reason to go on in life happily .. i always felt bad bout this being addicted to internet chatting email .. after reading ur post i feel good bout it after all all human beings needs love and appreciation..hmm now ur blog has become part of my morning routine to check ...


Yes i start my day with coffee and email too :)

Renu said...

Thank you Swarna for including me in ur daily routine! i am loving it:)
I am going to chk the dictionary for exact meaning of addiction,somehow in my mind addiction brings a negative image, while I think, anything which neither harms us or any body else cant be bad:) see i am justifying my adiction to tea and net, cant live without either:)

Hip Grandma said...

i totally agree.When I first started blogging the comments I got were more impotant than my morning coffee.I've eased out a little now.

Piper .. said...

:) I too would religiously watch Buniyaad, Humlog, Malgudi days when I was a child! I remember my mom was addicted to humlog and buniyad as well :) My day starts with coffee and email too :)
And lastly, who doesnt like to feel appreciated and loved ,Renu? Its only human! So dont worry too much about being addicted to blogging. Continue writing, so we can read more and more of your fabulous posts.. :)

Renu said...

Hip Grandma: Yeah ! I think so.

But ihave always been madly fond of writing and reading,If nothing else, I keep writing letters to various magazines and newspapers, sometimes about local problems also, and many have been published also:)

Piper : Thanks Piper for appreciatingmy posts,it makes me feel so upbeat:) and happy. In life apprecaition works as a tonic:)

Swats said...

tht was a heartfelt post ;-)
PC MAUSI LOL so cute
wht does ur daughter do Renu? my bro introduced me 2 blogging

and trust me u aren't the only addict, here on blogosphere!

Even i write to vent out my emotions/feelings..I guess 'blogging' gives u more clarity into ur thought process so chill!

As for comments, v all look foward to it, don't v? but I dont get hassled if sum1 disagrees vit wht i say..to each his own! Its a fun interactive learning experience

Balvinder Singh said...

I have alreday started feeling like a family with fellow bloggers though, i have seen none of them. Perhaps it is the magic of like minded thinking.

Yes the genius of the web has turned this glob into a small township.

Renu said...

Thanks Swats:)
My daughter is a computer engineer:).She hsa been my teacher in blogging from he very beginning:) and I am a very good student so what if I say so myself:)
kyon Guria? sahi kaha na?(my daughter also reads my blog)

I never get hasled with comments, they are always welcome, because I am always looking for the other side of peraspective. I am a firm beliver that criticism makes a person grow:)

Balvinder: Me too, I was living quite a friendless existence, what with changing places very often, though now I have made a few here, I am very happy ti find few blogging friends, with whom I can share my thoughts.

my space said...

Renu..patanjali says that we should cultivate `drashta bhav" i.e. be a witness..Well we all are trying to be that isn`t it..but approval and acknowledgement is what is what we all want at some level..so keep blogging..i already feel we have been friends since long.. even i wait for all your comments...

Renu said...

My space--Fist please tell me what is this Patanjali, if it is in English or Hindi i wud love to read it:)
I always think that too much of attachment whether it is for things or people brings pain.It doesnt mean we shud stop living or loving, but with a little disattachment, like u said--as a witness watching from a far. But human nature is such that it is very difficult to be like that:)

Smriti said...

Yes Mom you are very a good student :); though not very patient ;).

Here's the meaning of addiction:
"the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma."

Even though "addiction" has a very strong connotation, I feel that what you've described is akin to addiction and as we all know addiction of anything is not good! :)

Renu said...

See this is my daughter:)always looking for a perfection:)

Reflections said...

Very relevant post Renu....I echo a bit of But sometimes I too wonder if it is a good thing checking for comments every half an hour:-(.....

Renu said...

Reflection...Happy to see u here,kinda missing u:)
good or bad ,as long as we r enjoying it and have time to do so, lets enjoy it:)

my space said...

Patanajali is the name of a great philospher-he wrote about Yoga some 5000 years ago!! We read the sutras by patanjali in our yoga class.. he is amazing-every word that he has written is applicable even now..do u practice yoga?if yes then `nishpand bhav` is reflection..it helps you cultivate drashta bhav...Gosh too much jargon no???

Renu said...

Next time i go to landmark , I will look for a book written by him, if u can recommend any please do so.
And I feel ashamed to say that I dont know yoga, though wud love to, but a little lazy in exercising.